Give Me A Break.

No, really.

Please?

Because I am absolutely exhausted right now. And I even have no time to tend to my own blog. This is serious.

I'm five days away of beginning what will no doubt be the most challenging and stressful time of my life so far- VCE; my final two years of high school. Actually, I lied a little bit. We started two weeks of VCE last year, but this year it's the real deal.

And just to make my life that extra little bit more horrid and stressful, every subject (that's six subjects in total) has presented me with 'holiday homework'.

Get out.

Holiday homework? What in God's name do you call that? It's a holiday for a damn reason, you inconsiderate life-ruiners! I HATE ALL OF YOU!

So far, I've completed business management, literature, psychology and most of english. Media is untouched as yet, and history... wow, history.

Our assignment for history is a timeline. Let me tell you- I hate timelines. With a burning passion deep within my heart. I hate them, and if I could have a timeline personified for a moment, I would find a weapon and brutally murder it.

The timeline is supposed to show the events in the lead up to the first World War.

Do you know just how many damned things went on before the war?

A lot.

A whole heap of stuff. There was an arms race, there were colonial rivalries, there were rebellions and several different crises. To gather every detail and put it in order, to me, seemed impossible. And once I began the task, I realised it was. So far, I've done the events from 1815 to 1900 and already I want to die.

Really though, all this homework is draining me. I'm exhausted and I just want a break. I want no homework- actually, no school. And I want no work, and no issues with dad's illness, or our finances or anything like that. I want to have, for once, absolutely nothing to worry about.

I wonder what that would feel like?

I think if for once, after two and half years of such a difficult life, I had one day where I didn't have to worry about anything- I might collapse and die with happiness and relief. And disbelief. I'm just not used to not worrying about anything. And I wish it wasn't so.

I just want to travel right now. I want to leave off school for a while, and go to Mexico and see Cris. I miss him. We haven't spoken in days and it feels like years. I miss my buddy. Then I wanna go to Italy, and Barcelona and Sweden. I wanna catch up with Kim- I miss her, and she probably doesn't even know that. She just came back from Finland, where she lived and studied for about a year I believe. I wanna hear all her stories, and ask her if she knows Swedish too. She is one of my greatest supporters for my blog and for my writing. Kim and I will write novels one day.

I also want to see Karen, another wonderful friend who I'm so blessed with. What with our busy lives, making time for even a coffee is impossible. I miss her too.

Oh Lordy, I just want to stop time for a while. The world spins too fast.